Here's a rational method to rationalise a breakup/staying with andy: Great things about Andy + all the things he has done for me

1.       Tiff & Co Necklace

2.       Spain trip

3.       Paris trip

4.       Letting me stay and work in Areva

5.       His parents who are absolutely kind and gentle to me

6.       My room – huge wardrobe and cheap rent

7.       He cooks for me

 Bad things about Andy + all the things he has done wrong

1.       Gastric incident – wrong expressions of love

2.       Funky Buddha – definitely disappointing

3.       Me losing my appetite – not the most caring

4.       NO plans for 9 weeks?

5.       Late for dinners

6.       Playing computer games when he says he is studying

7.       No calls/texts when I was in Kent/Dublin (slightly better den)

8.       Doesn't lead a lifestyle that I condone = little social life + do not agree with his study method & time management & organisation of study schedule.

External Factors that has to be considered

1.       My parents + family = expecting me to marry andy.

2.       His parents = am I being responsible to them? Have I been grateful enough?

3.       Clayton = the fact that I have much affections for him. Tension really built up when things started getting real with Clayton. Would it die down since he is avoiding me right now? Yes most certainly. But do I still have genuine feelings for andy? (pt below)

My plans to forget him.

4.       Benny = he still loves me? I’m not expecting anything especially since he broke my heart once. But he makes me think about whether I really need a bf like Andy when I can have a ‘best friend’ like Benny who cares for me, loves me, whom I can confide when I have problems.

5.       My future career = is London really the place for me? Would I want to work in Singapore/Malaysia instead of London?

Aim = Find a job that sponsors my professional qualification regardless of location. Work out plan to search for jobs in Singapore/ Malaysia.

Do I really want to live at home after leaving home for so many years? Will it be an ideal career progression path or will I be settling for second best?

6.       My feelings for Andy = status unconfirmed. I have lost emotional ties as of now but might potentially regain them in the future. Points 1 to 5 are most important points of consideration.

Conclusion is unclear at this stage.

Solution: Wait till after christmas to confirm pt 6. But will start working on points 5, 2, 1.

shooooo... i'm not supposed to post these!

Hello Everyone

Welcome to my blog...
though you must be wondering why i have so many..
and why this paris hilton picture
and why this name.
well, i'm bored and its my last day at work =)
so enjoy ya?

this blog is gonna be about rubbish.. so whenever i feel like it i will write something..
but it wouldn't be an update of my life.
cos apparently i dun have the most interesting life
despite the fact that my display pic IS paris hilton
oh goodness i'm realli cranky in the morning.

just chill...
its always summer in malaysia =)



P.S. if you wanna know my likes and dislikes, go visit my friendster.. (too lazy to do it here)
happy figuring that out =)

The pebbles you’ve arranged
In the sand they’re strange
They speak to me like constellations as we lie here
There’s a magic I can’t hold
Your smile of honey gold
And that you never seem to be in short supply of

CHORUS:
Oooh…so baby let’s get it on
Drinking wine and killing time sitting in the summer sun
You know, I wanted you so long
So why’d you have to drop that bomb on me

Lazy days, crazy doll
You said we been friends too long
Seven days in sunny june
Were long enough to bloom
The flowers on the summer dress you wore in spring
The way we laughed as one
And then you dropped the bomb
That I know you too long for us to have a thing

REPEAT CHORUS (2X)

Could it be this, the starfish in your eyes
Tell our silent wings, you fly away on
Seven days in sunny june
Were long enough to bloom
The flowers on that sunbeam dress you wore in spring
We laughed as one, why’d you drop that bomb on me

REPEAT CHORUS

Could it be this…
The honeysuckle guess you seem to show me
Could it be this…
For seven days in june I wasn’t lonely
Could it be this…
You never gave me time to say I love you
Could it be this…
I know you don’t believe me, but it’s so true
Don’t walk away from me girl
I read the stories in your eyes 



get the track! you will luv it! at least i do =)
i'm so talking to myself. its alright:D

Hey Mom
Why didn't you tell me
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two
You just let me go
Out into the World
You never thought to share what you knew

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

Hey Mom
Why didn't you warn me
Coz about boys is something i should have known
They`re like chocolate cake
Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again

I wanna do it again
Oh, felt so good

Hey Mom
Since we're talking
What was it like when you were young
Has the world changed
Or is it still the same
A man can kill and still be the sweetest thing.

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good

So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
I've sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
I want to do it again




the picture and the lyrics dun link but its alright..
they are both CUTE:D